Ever since I own the iPad, I sort of neglected this blog cos it is always easier to use a computer and some stuff can't be done on the iPad and yet you still prefer to use it. Life has been good and I hope it can be like this for long run.
Kids are doing fine and Rebecca has turned 8 months and to think about it shes gonna be 9 months soon. She has begun to understand clapping and sitting upright pretty well. She loves to scream and she is one day who doesn't cry much but scream a lot and LOUD. Still, she's a adorable.
Jessica is a big girl now and I just brought her to watc h smurfs yesterday, she managed to sat through the whole show and I'm surprised. I guess the movie is good for kids like her age ESP when she started playing my smurfs, and knows the characters.
The only problem now is my toilet at home, damn . We all have to share the toilet upstairs cos the one below is having some problems. Hope the problem will resolve soon.

I just can't help it. All negative thoughts are flying through my head. Don't seem to be resting well during this confinement period, when I should make use of the nanny and get as much rest as possible.
Sometimes I wish my old helper is around. Not that the new one is terrible, just that she hasn't been picking English well enough, when is almost 2 months. She "gong gong" one and I'm sure she isn't 23 years old lah. She loves the newborn, but definitely not capable of taking care of her. I tend to worry when she brings my older one down to the playground. She don't seem to know the danger around.Hai
Am I going through mother blue leh? Or I've been home for too long, cos I dun stay home that much. But I went universal studio last sat for a short while and had dinner out on Sunday. Oh well, I just needed time to pull through this moody period. I'm glad that my mom is around for standby. Otherwise. . . .

Hello and I'm back. Not sure for how long but I'm having my confinement now. Yes, Rebecca has arrived at her 37th week. My actual edd was 29 Jan. Her birthday is very close to my elder daughter, they can have their birthday party together next year onwards. A big birthday cake, I suppose.
This pregnancy is indeed a tough one and my first pregnancy was very smooth. Whatever I hope not to happen in this pregnancy, all happened. One of them was c section. It ended up as an emergency c section because my water bag burst when I'm not into labour. My placenta was low and causes bleeding in the middle of the night, 2am. My husband and I thought it was the "bloody show" but we were so wrong. I went into labour ward stayed till 8 plus for the doc to come and check.
The whole experience happened so fast and scary enough, I will never forget. Stayed in hospital for 3 long sleepless nights. Haiz, I'm just glad the baby is healthy and heavier than we thought she might be. I guess it won't be easy from now on. 2 kids, more responsibilities. I am happy to have them in my life. With all the sufferings, it is worth it. Now, I appreciate my mother even more cos she went through the operation for us.

Havent been taking much pictures of myself. I have more pictures of Jessica than myself. Im in my 31st week of pregnancy and looking forward to the end of thid pregnancy journey. At the same time, im afraid of bigger responsibilites of another child. Going through night feeds, countless diaper change. I certainly hope this 2nd baby wont have vomitting problems like jessica. Jessica vomits alot, no one can imagine. My mom thinks that Jessica is a very difficult baby and there are many easy ones around.
Watching Jessica grow is such a joy. Recently i have been recalling her infancy stage where she knows nothing till talking non stop now and arguing with me. Hair grew alot more that now i can tie them. She likes princesses and wants to be one of them. She knows alot of cartoons. She can even swim alone with her jacket when she used to be afraid of water. The next thing to worry about her is attending her 1st day in school, nursery which is in january. She hasnt gone to school without mommy yet, i guess separation anxiety will be bad and by then i will be near by due date.
This pregnancy disallow me to sleep on my side, the baby kicks alot. So most of the time i end up sleeping on my back . In the morning, i will get stiff back and buttocks. well.....
Been praying alot that i can have natural birth , just like with Jessica because the experience was pleasant. however, my placenta has been low, i might end up with a c section. hoping for the best though.
good night...

Im into my 20 weeks and finally i felt that my friend was right. Time passed faster in this 2nd pregnancy than the 1st. Just one more month, im into my third trimester. I so much agree with my husband's friend Eugenia that pregnancy isnt fun at all and we totally cant understand why some people could even enjoy. Yes, it is nice to feel the movement of the baby but the process of feeling clumsy and ugly once more has come back. I cant fit into my tops and even shorts. My tummy seemed bigger this time round. My last pregnancy , the bump can only be seen when im 5 months. Now , i could see the growth since the 3rd month onwards.
Anyway, im expecting another baby girl. Was a little disappointed but im feeling ok now because i wont need to buy new clothings. It can be pass down from jessica. Most important it is healthy. Im going for my detailed scan later at this gynae, supposed to specialise in detecting abnormal babies, although my triple test results were the risk was low. William prefers the safer way.
Yesterday, william, jessica and i went to catch the Barney show at expo. The one that we've been telling Jessica about for the past whole month.

everyone is waiting for their turn to snap the poster

she wants to wear her costume

we didnt want to buy more soft toys , in the end.... we bought the BJ and baby Bop
i enjoyed the show, i thought it was better tha the disney on ice.
I havent been taking pictures of myself, so cant update on my baby bump.

Being a computer idoit. I have no idea why i can add a new post. I had to go through my draft pages just to add a new post. It takes ages to load at at the bottom it is written as error on page. If anyone could tell me any solution.
I want to write about my pregnancy just to remember all had happened, what i have gone through and im only on my 3rd month. i have 2 more trimester to go.
My first pregnancy was easy, very easy and no problem at all. My checkup started on my 2nd month pregnancy and i only needed to visit the doc once a month. No stretch marks, no water retention. Just very bad memory and i believe my memory isnt that good in the first place.
My 2nd pregnancy, i visited the doc on my 1st month too. It was good and expecting to visit the doc a month later. We were very happy to hear the baby's heartbeat and looking forward to its growth.  One day, on the 24th of june i had some bleeding. It was more like fresh blood and i panicked. I changed my plans for the day. Called william and he joined me at the clinic. The doc did a check and doesnt seemed worried enough to admit me when william asked him if i needed to. I insisted on going home. No one likes to stay in a hospital mah....
That same night, i ate something wrong and my bleeding hasnt stop. Not very heavy flow, but bleeding. William asked to take me to the hospital. I didnt dare to refuse because he wanted me to stay earlier on in the clinic.
Went to Gleneagles A&E, the nurses made a call to my gynae and he came. He decided to admit me. That incident i stayed for 2 nights. Everything was good after. William and i celebrated our bdays and anniversary too. On the actual day of my bday, we went to universal too.
About 1 week after, on a thursday after Jessica's shicida class. I went to ION, jalan jalan a bit. The only thing that happened was, jessica wanted to poo poo, i carried her all the way to the toilet. My mom and i wanted to go to the car to get the stroller , just as we reached the carpark. I felt a FLOW , almost all the way to my ankle and i was wearing a pair of jeans.
I told my mom i cant walk anymore to the car. I sat at one of the pillar at the carpark till the car came. I called the clinic and went there straightaway. I thought i lost the baby, i really did. I had to sit on a wheelchair to get to the clinic. Totally cant walk. Everything was like leaking out. Scary.............
Doc admitted me again and i stayed for 2 nights once more. The only thing i enjoyed in the hospital was the food. I dont know why i thought the food was delicious, maybe its the morning sickness that changed my taste.
I had to lie in bed till the blood stopped, cant even go to the toilet. everything was done on the bed. On the day of my discharge, William took me to great world city's crystal jade for lunch. We parked near the lift and the restaurant was near the lift. Basically i didnt walk much. Half way through lunch, i felt a flow AGAIN.......................................
Shit..................
i struggled to the carpark, couldnt find the car..................
we were on the wrong floor. I sat at the bars to wait for william. This time round we didnt go back to the clinic and it was a sat. We came home. I lied in bed like im in the hospital, i isolated myself till bleeding stopped.
A week after, it is my doc appt again. everything was smooth again. I sat in the car, eating my biscuit. Then, the FLOW came again. This time round i was sitting down somemore................... OMG...
When we reached the clinic, we had to valet and the nurse waited for me with the wheelchair. When i came down the car. The gleneagles stuff looked at my direction. This girl looked fine mah, why need a wheelchair. Next thing was, they saw blood coming down my legs. Like those TV drama la, both legs somemore..
Once more, i was admitted again and to stay in bed till bleeding stopssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss........
faintz. shake head. Well it isnt the end yet.. I had another incident at home, not as heavy as those i mentioned. Another week later , on a monday i went to see my doc again. 2weeks appt date, i couldnt wait. One week later i went back. He didnt want to admit me, but i looked too pale. He said i needed more blood, blood transfusion. I stayed for a night and prayed not to return ANYMORE.
Everytime when the weekend is near, all of us will be phobia. For almost all the weekends, esp sat, incidents happen. This week we manage to pass it. Ive been getting countless jabs. These jabs are really painful and now i needed to take them twice a week. It is painful because it is oil based. The needle has to go all the way into my butt. Worse than epidural. From the 2nd admission onwards, i get jabs . each stay about 3-4 jabs.. Think all in all, about 15 jabs in total, for now exclusing the blood tranfusion needle.
With the jabs and my hormones, i have colic problem too. My doc says that my 1st pregnancy is too smooth and boring. this, overly exciting until he dont want to see me so often. For ur info, baby is good, growth is good. its more of the mommy's problem. what to do? sacrifices from a mommy. I have to wait for another month for my pregnancy to be stable, im really looking forward to that..

sigh...

baby, baby. u must stay strong cos mommy is willing to go through all these. We must be strong and u must be healthy.

After purchasing the iphone, i barely use my camera for photo taking. I have been loading my pictures directly from my phone to FB. Iphone is a fantastic invention . Been having lots of mood swings recently and im learning to cope with it. From my research, it is part of the hormones change and that is because i am expecting no. 2.. I certainly hope it will be a boy, because that is what william would want. It will be perfect to have a girl and a boy. Ive gotten my girl though.
I would think that by thinking too much resulted in my mood swing. Afterall, my helper is leaving in October and she cant stay longer as she has home matters to settle which is all the same for all helpers. I had to let her leave earlier even her contract ends in Feb next year. I need time to get use to new helper and train her too. SO too much thoughts for now. I know William is trying to reduce my worries, he managed to get a confinement nanny that is willing to work during CNY. Btw, baby due on CNY period. But, i have to say women can think alot and im one of them.
How is Jessica able to cope, her school term starts in Jan too. Everything, all together. Gotta take 1 step at a time.
Meanwhile, i will continue to model till my tummy starts bloating. The last time, i could only see the bumps at 5 months. Hopefully its about the same and a smooth one. God bless....

Oh, its our wedding anniversary today.

I love you dear and nothing has change since the day we went. From courtship to marriage to parenting and parents of No. 2 soon. I cant say we went through alot, but definately not little. We grew together and understood each other better. I love our marriage and i will continue to cherish it. Hope you feel the same too. Hugs..

better surprise me with some delicious food later. haha